HARD DAYS, HARD NIGHTS

THEIR ARE HARD DAYS AND HARD NIGHTS

I SOMETIMES FEEL THAT NO ONE IS LISTENING. I FEAR THAT MY WORDS ARE THROWN OVERBOARD AND CAST INTO THE OCEAN.

WE ALL LOOK TO OTHERS FOR CONFIRMATION AND GRATITUDE FOR OUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS....BUT WHAT IF THEY ARE NOT THEIR...

TOO GIVE YOU THAT ACCOMODATION THAT YOU NEED TO HEAR, TO SAY GOOD JOB AND THANKYOU FOR DOING WHAT IS RIGHT.

WHAT YOU KNOW TO BE TRUE TO YOUR OWN REALITY... WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD INSIDE.

WHEN YOU DO NOT GET THIS...WHERE DO YOU GO?

I FIND THAT I CRY MANY TEARS...SOMETIMES THEY ARE SILENT AND SOMETIMES I CANNOT CONTROL THIER OUTBURST...THEY SLIP DOWN MY FACE SLOWLY BUT SILENTLY WHERE ALL THE WORLD CAN SEE.

THEIR ARE NO ENDEARMENTS, NO I AM SORRY'S, NO HUGS.

I FIND THAT I AM IN A LITTLE BUBBLE THAT IS READY TO BREAK UNDER THE STRAIN OF THE PRESSURE THAT IS PUSHING DOWN UPON ME...

UNDER THE UNKIND WORDS THAT CONSTANTLY BERATE MY EARS.

UNDER THE TORMENT THAT I FEEL.

I WONDER WHY MY WORDS CAN NEVER EXPRESS THE TRUE MEANINGS

I WONDER WHY MY WORDS CANNOT BE ALOUD TO BE EXPRESSED...WITHOUT THE ADDED WOE IS ME

I FIND ALSO THAT LIFE SEEMS TO BE WRAPPED IN CELOPHANE THAT RIPS AND TEARS AT THE CORNERS OF YOUR HEART

ONLY TO SHRIVEL AND BE CAST AWAY

I FIND THAT EMOTIONS CAN BE HELD WITHIN....BUT ONLY FOR A TIME UNTIL THE ANGER SETS IN.

I ALSO FIND DEEP IN MY HEART THAT I CANNOT ALLOW MYSELF TO LET MY WORLD REVOLVE AROUND

EVERYONE ELSE

THAT I NEED TO BE FIRST AND FOREMOST

I FIND THAT I NEED TO BE ABLE TO LAUGH MORE

I FIND THAT MY LIFE IS HARD BUT SOMETIMES EASY

BUT MOST OF ALL I I FIND I AM FINDING ME