LASTNIGHT A DIFFICULT TIME

LASTNIGHT A DIFFICULT TIME


LAST NIGHT WAS A DIFFICULT TIME

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THAT WHENEVER I TRY TO SPEAK OR HAVE A CONVERSATION OR EVEN MAKE A COMMENT

SOMEONE HAS COME IN AND SAY THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT OR TO SAY THAT HE IS BETTER THAN ME

IN HIS ILLUSION HE MIGHT BE CORRECT BUT IN MY REALITY I FIND THAT HE IS WRONG

WHAT TENDS TO BOTHER ME THE MOST IS HOW A PERSON CAN BE CRITICAL OF SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG BUT FINDS SOMETHING WRONG TO JUSTIFY HIS OWN ACTIONS

I AM A CNA, AND FOR HIM TO SAY THAT HE KNOWS MORE THAN I DO BECAUSE HE STUDIED FIRST AID IS LAUGHABLE IN THE LEAST... BUT OF COURSE CANNOT ARGUE WITH SOMEONE WHO BELIEVES THAT THEY ARE THE GREATEST WHETHER THEY HAVE ACCOMPLISHED SOMETHING OR NOT

I FIND THAT PEOPLE WHO DO THESE ACTS ARE INSECURE WITH THEMSELVES....THAT THEY ARE JEALOUS OR ENVIOUS OF OTHERS ACCOMPLISHMENTS AND HAVE TO BROW BEAT AND PUSH PEOPLE DOWN OR SUFFOCATE THEM TO MAKE THEMSELVES FEEL BETTER.

I FIND THAT THE ONE DOING WRONG IS BLESSED AND THE ONE DOING RIGHT IS OSTRACIZED....

HOW QUIET CAN A PERSON BE....

I CAN TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN BE VERY QUIET ALMOST INVISIBLE THAT YOU ARE FINALLY ALONE IN A ROOM FULL OF PEOPLE AND NO ONE CAN SEE YOU

I FEEL THAT MY BODY IS ABOVE AND WATCHING DOWN

ON THE ROOM THAT IS FULL

OF PEOPLE

DOING THIER FUNNY DEEDS

I AM LEFT ALONE IN MY SOLITUDE, NOT FINDING SOLACE... NOT FINDING PEACE

I CRAVE THE ATTENTION THAT MY HUSBAND GIVES TO OTHERS

I CRAVE HIS LOVE THE MOST OF ALL

THE COURSTEOUS AND THE HOSPITALITY

THE RESPECT

I FIND THAT I AM ALONE ON MY OWN IN MY OWN TEARS....

I FIND THAT I HAVE TO FIND MY OWN PEACE MY OWN INTEGRITY AND MY OWN RESPECT

NO ONE ELSE CAN GIVE ME THESE BUT MYSELF

THIS IS MY GOAL

MY GOAL TO LOVE MYSELF UNCONDITIONALLY AND RESPECT MYSELF AND BE AN INTEGRITY KEEPER OF SELF